I was best friends with Eve since 2nd grade. We did all kinds of silly things together and I really liked her as my friend. So in 6th grade I have this Russian language lesson and she's sitting beside me (we were still best friends). We are doing some exercises in the workbook and there's this one where you have to tell about your best friend in Russian. They were simple questions like name, age, hobbies and so on. Anyway I am about to write her name on the first line when I look into her workbook and see that she has written another girl's name there, one of my classmates. I felt horrible. I always thought of her as my best friend but obviously she did not. I was really embarrassed about thinking that I was her closest friend so I wrote down another girl's name, a girl she did not know, because I didn't have any other best friends, only classmates-friends.
So from then on I am really not open to anyone. Yeah, I have friends. But mostly I don't tell them how I feel or what I'm really thinking or what's bothering me. And they don't seem to care because we're just casual friends - somebody to spend time with.
I never feel lonely though. Honestly! I think I am one of those persons who doesn't feel lonely when they're alone.
I'm starting my junior year in high school (aka 11th grade) this fall by the way.
So from then on I am really not open to anyone. Yeah, I have friends. But mostly I don't tell them how I feel or what I'm really thinking or what's bothering me. And they don't seem to care because we're just casual friends - somebody to spend time with.
I never feel lonely though. Honestly! I think I am one of those persons who doesn't feel lonely when they're alone.
I'm starting my junior year in high school (aka 11th grade) this fall by the way.
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